Wednesday i came home, there was only one dog. And when hafeeza walked in, the look on her face said it all. It wasnt a surprise, after 15 years of life complicated by arthritis, cancer and glaucoma, it was perhaps his time to go..
Oh but how ill miss him.
He was a big dog- weighed about 130lbs. Gentle giant Rottweiler with a low rumbling old-dog bark that would shake the house. A grandfather dog, his arthritis limited his movement but he tried his best to be the dog he once was. Days in the house it was just me and the dog. He sat and watched as i read 'for colored girls' aloud, first watching intently, then yawning, and by the time i proclaimed "I found God in myself and I loved her-- I loved her fiercely", i turned around and he was asleep.
When i screamed bloody murder as a giant flying cockroach flew through the window, he slowly hobbled to my defense, barking at the bug but unable to chase it. But he tried, and thats all that mattered.
I'm going to miss big blackie. Sliding acroos the floor to rest his huge self on my feet. Watching through my door as i tried on different outfits before i finally settled on the same jeans and tshirt i usually wear. Watching as i danced around my room to 'laffy-taffy'. Watching and waiting for me to wake up, watching and waiting for me to go to sleep.
A tear rolling down my cheek as i walk past his favorite part of the room, between our two doors. The silence that his tail hitting the floor used to fill.
All Dogs go to heaven
and like we used to end funerals at my old church
'and so it is'.
2 comments:
that's so sad. my heart goes out. i miss my kaj. sending you and hafeeza light.
always,
l'
Aww...Alii...I am sad that you lost one of the only dogs your arent scared of. I once had a Rottweiler named Amigo when I was in elementary school...He did too from complications off a food item my cousin lynwoods's grandma gave him. Love on the one that you have left as if the other is there...Give Hefeeza my condolences (sp)...loving you...
A.
Post a Comment